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Personal Stories

Here you’ll find participants’ accounts of living with addiction, dependence or a drug habit. The people and stories were carefully selected to highlight diversity in backgrounds and experiences. While this website is not able to tell every possible story in Australia, it can show just how different people and their experiences are. In the stories can be found details of the many important concerns and circumstances our participants negotiated in living with addiction, dependence or a drug habit.

The stories presented here rely on participant reports of drug use and related health issues. Some experiences may not conform to medical definitions or medical advice, but notes have been added in such cases to clarify key points.

While these narratives were written from the interview transcripts and rely on participants’ own words, some aspects have been paraphrased to improve coherence and readability. In making these changes we have worked hard to remain faithful to the original meaning and intentions. Some experiences may also be presented in other sections of the website, using more detailed quotations.

Angelo
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
In his early thirties, Angelo started experiencing what he thought was ‘telepathy’ after he’d been drinking.
Ben
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Ben started drinking and smoking cannabis with friends as a teenager and when he was in his twenties his drinking increased.
Bill
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Bill first tried alcohol at a young age when a family member offered him a drink. He started drinking fairly regularly in his teens.
Dawn
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
In her late twenties Dawn started drinking heavily to help her relax and cope with stress.
Emma
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Emma started drinking as a teenager and by her mid-twenties she says she had a ‘serious problem’ with alcohol.
Fozz
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Fozz began drinking in his early twenties at university and his consumption gradually increased.
George
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
George started drinking after his wife died and says he thinks he has an ‘alcohol habit’.
Luke
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
While working in a ‘high pressure’ job, Luke began drinking every day as a ‘release’ and a way to ‘block’ feelings of depression and anxiety
Opal
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
From his late teens into his twenties, Opal worked in industries where he says working hard and ‘drinking hard’ were ‘widely accepted’.
Phoenix
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Phoenix grew up in a ‘violent home’ and describes his parents as ‘alcoholics’. In his mid-teens his parents separated and he left home and began drinking regularly.
Scott
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
When Scott was in his early twenties, he went drinking regularly with his friends. He also worked at a nightclub, which he says gave him many opportunities to drink.
Anthony
Anthony lives by himself in a rooming house in Sydney. He works casually in hospitality for several entertainment venues.
Arjun
Arjun started drinking with friends when he was younger, and gradually over time his drinking became heavier.
Bryan
Bryan has been drinking heavily for the last six to eight years, but at the time of the interview he hadn’t had any alcohol for three weeks.
Andrew
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Andrew started smoking cannabis daily in his late teens and in his twenties he started drinking alcohol heavily. He now describes his alcohol and cannabis consumption as ‘addictions’.
Anika
Experiences with cannabis women aged 18-29
Anika has smoked cannabis on a regular basis since her mid-teens. She says she smokes to ‘chill out’, and ‘be more open…happy and content with life’.
Artemis
men 18-29. cannabis, party drugs, life story
In his early twenties, Artemis began smoking cannabis with his partner at the time and a few years later, after moving to Australia, he started taking drugs sometimes referred to as party drugs.
Callum
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Callum began smoking cannabis in his mid-teens, which he says ‘was a sign of rebellion’ during a time when he ‘wasn’t happy with [his] life’.
Dee Jay
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Dee Jay started smoking cannabis daily in his early twenties while at university, and taking MDMA and cocaine on the weekends.
Dylan
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Dylan began drinking alcohol and smoking ‘yarndi’ (cannabis) with his friends in his early teens and continued to do so into his early twenties.
Jacob
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Jacob started smoking cannabis in his late teens when he was studying for a tertiary qualification as he found it helped him concentrate on his studies.
Jenna
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
After about five years of regular cannabis consumption Jenna began to think she might be experiencing an ‘addiction’ to cannabis.
Jim
cannabis habit, cannabis addiction, Experiences with cannabis men aged 18-29
Jim began smoking cannabis in his late teens at parties with his friends. He says this bound his social circle together.
Lala
Experiences with cannabis women aged 30-39
Lala began smoking cannabis in her mid-teens and has continued to do so since then.
Louise
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
When Louise first started smoking cannabis regularly, her parents encouraged her to seek alcohol and other drug counselling.
Lucy
Experiences with cannabis addiction women aged 30-39
Lucy describes herself as having a ‘cannabis habit’ and a ‘mental dependency’ to cannabis.
Matthew
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Matthew has smoked cannabis ‘for the better part of thirty years’. He finds it helps him cope with depression, and gives him hope and motivation.
Max
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
A few years before the interview, Max's father died and he started smoking cannabis every day to cope with the loss.
Nadia
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Nadia began smoking cannabis daily in her mid-teens. She says this helped her cope with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
Pauline
Experiences of cannabis addiction from women aged 50-59
Pauline started smoking cannabis daily in her mid-teens and continued during her twenties while at university.
Sydalicious
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Sydalicious started smoking cannabis when she was in her late teens and has smoked it intermittently since then. She finds it helps her manage pain associated with injuries she sustained in a motorcycle accident.
Ted
cannabis, MDMA, cocaine, GHB
In his early twenties, Ted began smoking cannabis daily, and then a few years later he started taking MDMA, cocaine and GHB regularly. He also took ice and ketamine occasionally.
Dylan
Dylan started drinking heavily eight years ago when he was involved in a drug court program related to heroin use.
Amy
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
As a teenager growing up in the suburbs, Amy felt like she didn’t fit in with the young people in her neighbourhood.
Barry
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Barry started drinking regularly and smoking cannabis in his early teens after a close family member died. In his early twenties, he began taking heroin and has continued to take it on and off since then, which he now describes as ‘an addiction’.
Bobby
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
In his mid- to late teens Bobby began smoking cannabis and taking speed regularly with friends.
David
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
When David was in his mid-teens he first tried heroin with a cousin and then started taking it on his own.
Grace
Experiences with heroin women aged 50-59, heroin
Grace began taking heroin in her twenties and has taken it fairly regularly since then.
Harry
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Harry has taken heroin fairly regularly for the past thirty years, organising his consumption around his work commitments.
Helen
Experiences with heroin women aged 50-59
When Helen was in her twenties, she ‘drifted into’ a ‘population of people’ who took heroin and began taking it herself.
Jack
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Jack began taking heroin occasionally in his twenties and stopped in his early thirties after his doctor prescribed him morphine and Xanax® (alprazolam).
Josie
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Josie first tried heroin in her early teens and has taken it fairly regularly since then, with long periods when she stopped taking it while pregnant.
Kate
heroin addiction, prescription drug addiction, ice addiction
Kate first tried drugs in her mid-teens, occasionally smoking cannabis, and taking LSD and speed with friends.
Misja
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Misja found himself homeless in his pre-teenage years. He says he began taking ‘anything’ he could to ‘get high’ and in his early teens he started taking heroin regularly.
Ned
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Ned began taking heroin in his late twenties, stopping after a few months when he felt he had developed a ‘habit’.
Nick
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Nick first started taking heroin regularly after he was involved in a car accident.
Peter
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
When Peter was in his early twenties he tried a variety of drugs but avoided heroin. Then in his late twenties, he decided to try heroin and since then has taken it intermittently.
Rachel
Experiences with heroin women aged 50-59
Rachel began taking heroin, cannabis and cocaine in her late teens, and says her consumption ‘escalated’ in her early twenties.
Sophie
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
Sophie first tried cannabis as a pre-teen and after some time, she started smoking heroin through a bong. When she found she ‘wasn’t getting a kick anymore’ she started to inject it.
Zadie
Experiences with heroin women aged 30-39
During periods of more frequent heroin use, Zadie says she developed ‘small dependencies’, feeling she needed it ‘to function’.
Dean
Experiences with ice men aged 30-39
Dean began taking ice and GHB in his early twenties with sexual partners.
Ethan
Experiences with ice men aged 30-39, ice addiction
Ethan grew up in what he describes as a ‘very religious and restricted’ household. In his late teens he began a relationship and moved in with his boyfriend.
Eva
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
Eva first tried ice when she was a teenager with some friends, thinking it was speed.
Jason
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
In his late teens Jason started taking ecstasy and speed every few weeks with his friends and partner at the time.
John
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
When John was in his twenties, he started taking ice to enhance the experience of sex.
Melanie
ice addiction, experiences with ice women aged 18-29
Melanie started taking ice in her early twenties and after a while she began to feel like her consumption had become ‘problematic’.
Renee
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
During her teens Renee smoked cannabis daily with her then partner. The relationship ended when she was in her early twenties and it was around this time that she began taking ecstasy and ice.
Scarlett
Experiences with ice women aged 18-29
Scarlett first tried ice in her early twenties but didn’t take it again for a couple of years. Then she started taking it with her partner every couple of months.
Tiffany
experiences with ice women aged 30-39
Tiffany took ice regularly in her early twenties to help her manage full-time work and caregiving responsibilities for her children.
Zoe
Experiences with ice women aged 30-39
Zoe began taking ice occasionally in her late twenties and over the next year she says it became part of her daily routine.
Jakub
After Jakub moved to Australia in his 50s and divorced from his first wife, he started drinking heavily. He was ‘bored’ and ‘lonely’.
John
Six months ago, John admitted himself to hospital and was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver and ascites.
Michael
Michael started drinking heavily following the death of his mother and a subsequent cycling accident.
Sean
men 40-49, OTC drug, Experiences with over-the-counter drugs men aged 40-49
Throughout much of his thirties, Sean took heroin, ice and cocaine, typically with friends, sometimes in relationships, and also alone. His drug consumption changed when he began a new relationship in his late thirties.
Zac
Experiences with party drugs men aged 50-59, party drugs, ice
Zac began taking party drugs in his thirties. When he felt that he was taking them ‘too often’, he sought counselling from a psychologist.
Annemarie
audio recording, prescription drugs, cannabis, cannabis habit, depression, heroin, men 40-49, drinking, alcohol problem, ice addiction
When she was in her early twenties, Annemarie experienced anxiety and panic attacks, and was prescribed benzodiazepines.
Rudy
Rudy’s drinking has changed over time. At the time of the interview, he was drinking less and mostly limited his drinking to ‘social gatherings’.
Brad
cannabis, cannabis addiction, drug counselling, depression. anxiety, heroin addiction, alcohol, ice, prescription drugs, life story, drug use experience, drinking, heroin, morphine, alcohol habit, addictions, speed
When he was in his late teens Brad was prescribed a ‘very mild’ stimulant for ‘mood enhancement’. He soon began taking more than the prescribed dose.
Steve
Steve used to drink heavily but in recent years has been drinking less.
Wayne
Wayne started drinking heavily in the mid-1980s as a way of relaxing when his children were young.